Those of you who follow my Twitter feed will know what a bustling, busy month I’ve had. My time has been divided amongst too many friends and events to try to recount in the occasional blog post. Plus I can’t hang around indefinitely because I have lunch plans and then I need to start packing for Toronto. But while I have some time, I do want to answer a question I get occasionally.
“What do you want to do?” It’s not an unusual question. I don’t feel like I’m alone in thinking that it’s a notoriously slippery one to answer, however. I’ve always had a passion for creativity and storytelling. At various times over the past 15 years I’ve been determined to be a writer, game designer or filmmaker. Currently I’m attending part time classes toward a film degree, while pursuing writing on my own and helping to organize a writer’s group. And yet as I’ve grown older I’ve found myself still working out who I really am as an artist, while many of those around me have found their niche and are pursuing their dream projects. Oftentimes they don’t even know what they’ve got, and it falls to me to share my passion and explain to them how awesome and valuable their talent is.
But there’s something there, I think. It turns out that I enjoy being around artists and creatives as much as I enjoy creating for myself. I’m in my element when someone is bouncing ideas or problems off of me, and I love giving feedback on works in progress. For me, the drive to collaborate is very strongly tied to the one to create. Over the past few years my ideas of what I’d like to do with my life have matured into something a little more solid than what I had before, and I’d like to share some of those thoughts now.
Don’t get me wrong, I still want to be in a position to create for myself. I don’t think I could be wholly content just helping and encouraging others. But I think that needs to be a part of it. What I really want is a building. A big building. And this building should have sound stages and film production facilities, and offices and computers, and recording studios. I want to be able to meet filmmakers and game designers and writers and artists and musicians and say to them, “I really like what you’re working on, what do you need to make it happen?” And whether the answer is access to equipment, help from another artist in a different field, publishing/distribution help or just a bunch of money, I’d love to be in a position to hook people up with that. Of course, when I wanted to work on something personally, those same networks and resources would be there.
Am I being greedy? Yes, I’m greedy. And maybe a little unrealistic. Given the chance to do anything, I’d like to have a finger in many different fields. Maybe I just enjoy surrounding myself with creative people. That’s not the worst dream to have.